My Christmas Present

“Here’s Looking At You, Kid” – Humphrey Bogart in Casablanca

“Eternity has nothing to do with time. Time is what shuts you out from eternity. Eternity is now.”

Joseph Campbell, Pathways to Bliss

Christmas day.

It’s been a crisp, rather chilly week in Miami, Florida. Weather is in the mid 50’s, and, if you know anything about my neck of the woods, you should know that this is not our normal. In typical Miami fashion, Christmas day is a good beach day. Not this year! It is delicious, don’t take me wrong, but it is unusual enough to deserve a mention. I had my windows open on Christmas day, and the nippy breeze getting in had me all wrapped up and cozy in my sofa.

And among the quiet of the Christmas morning, I found myself blissfully content. Softly and uninvited, a feeling of “everything is ok” engulfed my apartment, and gratitude set in. I must insist that it’s been a plain, and simple morning. I live alone, so no kids were unwrapping gifts. Christmas tunes were playing on my cell phone, and I made breakfast for one… and it was ok. I had no expectations of what Christmas morning should look, and it felt perfect. For the first time in quite some time.

I have found that it takes a while enjoying one’s own company. Looking at yourself, liking what you see, and staying put. Big accomplishment I admit, for someone who historically has depended so much on others to fill up her space. “It is perfectly normal to wish for partnership, dear.” I quietly tell myself. “But it is also a good idea to dance with yourself for right now.”

I am here, in eternity, in my present, dancing with myself and enjoying it. It is refreshingly liberating and thrilling to not know what is coming, but trusting that all will be fine. A deep, irrevocable knowing that beauty, love, and truth are available and at my reach. Looking forward for adventure, fire, and movement to lead me in the right direction.

I am setting intention and goals for the next year. Are you setting your intentions for 2021?

Much love…

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